Okay. THANK YOU. This is a big help. I have (finally) established the following as my MC’s internal GMC:
Goal: To exercise her considerable powers of will, passion, and intellect as she chooses without letting down/ alienating her family.
- A natural desire to exercise her own internal muscle. She is very strong intellectually and emotionally, but she has been trained since birth to subordinate her own will to her family’s, especially her father’s. He also, however, raised her to believe in her abilities. She does, so she wants to use them as she thinks best. She is a lot of restless potential energy that wants to be kinetic.
- She is naturally empathetic in a way that her father is not. She is wired to want to stop people from being unhappy.
- Her dad’s grief over losing her mom (she could never assuage that grief entirely, but she has tried her best. This is part of not wanting to let him down.)
- Her uncle’s vulnerability.
- Caleb’s social discomfort
- Even Lucas – she sensed that she could be useful to him.
- She has always known that even the strongest person she knows (her dad) cannot stop terrible things from happening. When her mom died; when her dad got hurt; etc., she absorbed the idea that the world can spin out of control. She therefore has a general tendency to want to exercise as much power over situations as she can.
- She has been educated differently from her father’s generation, to be aware of social, racial, and economic privilege in ways that they are not. Being an empathetic, “doing things” sort of person, she is naturally uncomfortable sitting still in the face of injustice. She wants other people to be happy and does everything she can to ensure it.
- She feels a family responsibility to work at the family law firm. She’s grown up knowing that this is what the family expects, as have her cousins.
- She suspects her father will not forgive her if she takes a different path from the one he has set out for her.
- He is autocratic by nature and has trouble tolerating dissent.
- He raised her to be one way and will have trouble accepting her another way.
- He has already lost Lise’s mom, whom he has never stopped grieving, and she sees staying in her firm job and maintaining their connection as-is as a way of taking care of him.
- He sees her interest in social justice as juvenile (since he kind of outgrew his), and she knows he will have trouble respecting it.